1.22.2009

I'm not 13 I'm just normal

Now that I am the ripe old age of 25 and a half, and heading into my "late" twenties (gasp), I have noticed something.

Some of the feelings I thought would go away never have. And I suspect they never will.

I've read a lot of blogs and met a lot of people. I've been to a lot of houses and I've had a lot of company. And there is one thing that stands out amongst all of that interaction: we are all people, women, moms, just doing what we need to do to get by. And along with that comes all of the normal human emotions. Insecurity. Frustration. Feeling left out. Sometimes you feel self confident and totally in your element, and sometimes you feel just plain dumb.

I was hoping I would outgrow all of that. But apparently it grows with you.

(And as I type this I hear my oven clicking, implying that I left my oven on all night. Uh, super. I so do not have it all together...)

Edited to Add:
Another sign I do not have it together? I totally meant to save this as a draft, and only realized it was published when I got an email saying I had a comment! So there you have it. An unedited sloppily published post. And guess what? I'm leaving it that way.

5 comments:

  1. That's almost relieving and discouraging to hear, that those feelings stay with us. I'm turning 25 this year and I wonder if I will ever stop feeling insecure, doubting myself, struggling to get by. But then we do hit those days, like you said, that we feel confident and accomplished, and in our element. It's those days that carry us through.

    thanks for sharing your true feelings :)

    (don't guilt yourself about the stove! We all have our moments...so just have some coffee and laugh about it!)

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  2. I'm so with ya on this one :-)Was adulthood supp
    osed to feel different? I thought you just knew what to do all the time when you were an adult. Darn it.
    Don't worry about the oven.
    We left our garage door open last night. Nice.

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  3. As a kid, I remember thinking adults must really have it made. Boy was I wrong! At 27 I still have those horribly insecure moments, days, months. I have gotten better at dealing with them, but by no means have they gone away. It's always nice to know that I'm not the only grown up who doesn't always feel grown. :)

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  4. I don't know what everyone is talking about. I never feel insecure any more... What? Not buying it? Okay, so maybe sometimes. I do think the great thing about getting older, though, is that I learn to obsess about those feelings less. More things roll off my back than they used to. Like how many times I forget to turn the oven off. Nate actually makes a regular habit of checking it now. He very rightly assumes that on any given day, it might be running needlessly for hours. Oh yeah, I'm a grown up.

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  5. I can relate to that. I'm 27 and sometimes I still feel insecure and "small." But, other times, I feel like I'm on top of the world. I guess some things don't ever change...

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