Okay friends, I have a confession.
I am not just a bad blogger.
It is after midnight so it's official -- I am 13 weeks pregnant.
I just can't hold it in anymore.
We've known about this baby for two months and I've been really sick for about a month and a half. I've been noticably absent from this blog and leaving comments and from twitter, my brain barely able to come up with thoughts that wouldn't give this news away.
And it isn't that I didn't want to share it, because I did. But I also thought that keeping it a secret would make it only sort-of-true instead of all the way true. I thought if I didn't celebrate too much or spread it around, if I didn't tell people about the positive pregnancy tests or act happy about it, I could keep it in sort-of-true limbo as long as necessary. Sort-of-true seemed good because it would enable me to protect myself from feeling so much if it ended in another miscarriage.
But at this point? I've realized that sort-of-true doesn't exist. Emotionally and physically, I am all in. I am SO all in. I am totally, 100% aware that it is true. I am pregnant. I have been dreaming up names and buying maternity tank tops. Our families and friends now know and I look visibly... round.
I am all the way in, in deep, and this is why I am telling you now, even though we have yet to hear a heartbeat.
My first appointment is Thursday morning and I am praying for all to be A-OK.
Will you join me?
You'll be in my prayers, lady :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!!!!!!
so happy for you. totally will pray for you and that sweet little baby. yaaaaay!
ReplyDeleteYay! So, so happy for you! And praying with you that baby & mama stay healthy!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!! And many heartfelt wishes for good health (yours and your baby's)!
ReplyDeleteSo, when do we get to see pics of this round baby belly of yours? :) I'm so very, very happy for you. And, of course, you and this new little one are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteOh I am so happy for you! So exciting to share the pregnancy and birth and new life journey with you. Congratulations!!!! And prayers, yes.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait for the oven light to turn on so we can all see the bun in there...
ReplyDeletexxoxoxoxo
Congrats Erin. I'm so happy for you!
ReplyDeleteof course I will pray for you! I'm praying for a happy and healthy heartbeat as well as some relief from all the sickness you are feeling. So you must be due end of summer-ish? Congrats!
ReplyDeleteYes, prayers! I have to admit, when I noticed your silence, I was hoping this was the reason.
ReplyDeleteI am all smiles. :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats!!! May you and baby have a wonderful time during the rest of your pregnancy :D
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
ReplyDeleteI'm with you!
ReplyDeleteLove to you and yours :)
So happy for you.
I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I am so happy we are pregnant together, I am just 7 weeks, but still, yay! So happy for you, praying!
ReplyDeleteSo wonderful! Praying for strong baby heartbeat! Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteCONGRATS!! I know Thursday can't come soon enough!!
ReplyDeleteYAY! YAY! YAY! Praying!
ReplyDeleteKim :-)
lots of prayers, erin! and congrats!! happy happy happy!
ReplyDeleteYea!!! Congratulations!!!
ReplyDeletecongrats. i'm so very very very happy for you and your family
ReplyDeleteOh Erin I am SOO happy for you!!! I will be keeping you and your little peanut in my prayers! :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats! I used to think that I would wait a while before telling people that I was pregnant in case I miscarried. (My husband and I are planning on starting TTC soon.) But then I realized that a baby is a baby, however long he/she lives and I want everyone to know and be excited that my baby exists whether they ever get to meet him/her or not!
ReplyDeleteSending happy mo-jo your way. As I type, my 8 week old baby girl is asleep on my chest. It's a wonderful and emotional ride!
ReplyDeleteso happy for you, erin! i had a feeling something was up :) you are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! :) :) :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! I am so happy for you and wish you all the best in the next 6 months. Isn't it nice to kick the 1st trimester to the curb?
ReplyDeleteI just came out last week, due in August. I am a ~little~ behind you, though.
Congratulations! Praying, praying, praying! xoxoxo.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, Erin! I'm so happy to hear such wonderful news.
ReplyDeleteI hope your sickness passes quickly. Prayers for a happy and healthy next 7 months for you and baby!
Congratulations again!
Congrats, wonderful news :)
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you. I look forward to many more pregnancy conversations :) Have fun at your appointment!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you Erin!! I felt the same exact way after our miscarriage and I got pregnant with Em. Praying for you friend!!
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the family of three club! How exciting.
ReplyDeleteNell
SOOOO excited for you! Will be praying on Thursday.
ReplyDeleteAll my best wishes for you and your little family.
ReplyDeleteYou know, you pretty much force us to love you.
Congratulations! Praying for excellent news from the doctor!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!
ReplyDeleteI am weepyhappy for you, lady.
ReplyDeleteWhat a FUN time for me to find your blog! I am definitely with you. There's nothing like that swoosh-swoosh-swoosh sound, is there?
ReplyDeleteEEEK! This is wonderful news! How wonderful for all of you. Many prayers coming your way for a healthy appointment and a healthy pregnancy.
ReplyDeleteGood luck. Nothing but good thoughts are being sent your way. Come on little baby, make your mommy & daddy so very happy.
ReplyDeleteOh, Erin. Congratulations! That is truly wonderful news. I am so happy for you. You will definitely be in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, Erin! You and BabyPeanut#3 will be fine. And I'm pretty sure he/she will be BEAUTIFUL, just like Clark and Alice. Enjoy your 2nd/3rd trimesters (usually easier than the 1st one)! Hugs and prayers from the other side of the globe!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! Praying for healthy mom and baby!
ReplyDeleteI was the same way with my first...I'd had so many people that were shocked when we told them we were pregnant so early. But I told them, if something went wrong, I wanted to have support from people that knew what was going on, instead of having to try and hide that part too.
So lots and lots of prayers that yours will turn out as perfect as mine did.
ok, so I left a comment yesterday. But can I leave a second comment and tell you again how awesome I think this is?
ReplyDeleteHUGE congratulations to you! Can't wait to hear about the appointment!
ReplyDeleteI think I must have dreamed I commented here because I thought I did (from my phone) -
ReplyDeleteyou know I'm praying and so thrilled for you!
Steph
So happy for you! That's amazing news! You are in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteWonderful news! I'll be praying for you and your sweet babe!
ReplyDeleteStacy
yay! congratulations!!!
ReplyDeleteThrilling and wonderful!
ReplyDeleteCongrats doesn't really quite cut it. So happy for you!!!