6.03.2010

I am older, today

When I was a little girl I thought my birthday was the most important day of the year.

JUNE THIRD was the beginning of Summertime and it was always swimsuity and warm and happy all over and I could feel a wheel turning and myself getting a little bigger while staying safely little.


But I've been counting time in trimesters and weeks old and dirty diapers and trimesters again, in a circle, since I was 22.

JUNE THIRD doesn't feel very much like the start of anything anymore.  It feels like 29 weeks pregnant, three years old, 21 months old, crummy floors.

And just as I was starting to feel the tiniest bit sorry for myself about this, thinking that kids have sucked the "Erin" out of me and turned me into an ageless functional person called "Mom". . .

 Clark, telling me a silly story about a pencil with a pom-pom on top, stopped talking and grinned at me.
"Happy Birthday" he said.
He grinned again.
"This is gonna be a loud one," he warned.
"HAPPY BIRTH-DAY!" he shouted at the top of his lungs.
"Happy Birthday" he whispered.
"Three Happy Birthday-s.  I love you."

No one has said "Happy Birthday" to me with so much genuine enthusiasm since I was safely little.

My name is Erin and today I am 27.

June 3, 1986

28 comments:

  1. This is going to be a loud one too:
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY GORGEOUS!
    xoxo L

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  2. Happy, happy day.

    He is just darling. You are a blessed mama. :)

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  3. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN!!!"
    (said with all the loudness and enthusiasm I can muster:)

    You are beautiful.
    I would love to step across your crummy floors to share birthday coffee with you.

    Then you could come and step on my crumbs and it would be lovely.

    Lovely because you are real and alive and talented and a marvelous Mama and you make others just ache to be your friend.

    I hope your day is perfect.

    <3 Sara Sophia

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  4. Happiest day of all to you! So much love your way.

    Love,
    steph

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  5. I'm a hormonal emotional blubbery mess but that brought tears to my eyes.

    Happy Birthday. Erin's still in there.. :)

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  6. pretty awesome. best birthday wish ever.

    my favorite way to wish someone happy birthday is this:

    'happyyyyy day of birth!! i'm so glad YOU were born.'
    and today......that's what you get!


    xo live it up!

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  7. awe this make me choke up.

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY

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  8. I'm glad I get to know you, Erin-who's-27. Happy, Happy Birthday.

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  9. Happy Birthday!

    My name is Deborah and I am 32 today.

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  10. Soooo precious! And so priceless, too!

    Happiest of birthdays to you, my dear. May God grant you many more blessed years in health and happiness.

    Hugs, Susan

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  11. Happy Birthday Erin!! Have an excellent day & do something for YOURSELF xox

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  12. Happy Birthday! My birthday was yesterday and I was feeling a little similar until my youngest yelled at me "Happy Dirt-daymOMMMMMMie" at top volume at 5:45am. It was one heck of a way to start a great day!

    Happy June 3rd to you!

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  13. adorable and heart-warming. I'm so glad that he was able to make your day. Enjoy 27 and take some time for you too.

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  14. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DELICIOUS!!

    Today, June 3 is the BESTEST day EVER!! Again.

    xox

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  15. oh, goodness me, erin. that story made me tear up--what a sweet, sweet boy.

    happy birthday (belated) to you! it sounds like a tough one, but i hope there was some sunshine in there too.

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  16. That was so sweet happy birthday

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  17. Happy Birthday! I hope you had a wonderful birthday.

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  18. I hope your day was beautiful! Happy birthday!

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  19. That's awesome! Happy belated birthday!

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  20. Oh how sweet! Happy belated, my friend. I can't believe I'm almost 10 years older than you are. Maybe that's why I look 10 years older than you are ;)

    Love you.

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  21. oh so sweet... happy belated, darlin'. i hope it was great!

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  22. LOVE THIS. Happy birthday, sweet girl. I hope you had the best day.

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  23. Happy Belated Birthday, Erin! I hope this year is full of wonder, magic, happiness, good food, good friends, good music, and clean floors. :)

    stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

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