today i thought a lot of things that seemed wise in the moment but i think it was just my brain playing tricks on the other parts of my brain, to stay motivated. one of the things i was thinking seemed really complicated but i kept stripping it down and stripping it down, in my mind, until all that was left was, basically, that the grass is always greener. which has been said before. one of the parts that got untangled and thrown out was this long train of thought about perspective and how people always look at other people and see luck or ease or whatever, but a lot of times that other person actually just works really hard and doesn't complain. not me. i work medium hard and complain a medium amount. but the people i want to be more like are the ones who work really hard and don't complain very much, because i think the complaining makes it all seem worse and the memories more stressful and i want very much to just tell everyone, yes, you're right, that sucks, and isn't life funny and you can do it and don't fret and buck up and sing a song. those are the things i am telling myself during the medium amount of time i am choosing to not complain. but it's spring now, actual spring, so i'm upping the pep talk usage and bucking up and singing a song. happy happy happy happy happy. and that isn't even forced. i feel it. happy happy happy happy happy.
april is national poetry month and i'm thinking i will feature some of the old (elementary school through college) poetry, written by myself and luke, that we found in the garage this past weekend. oh yes i will.
and saving the best for last, the randomly selected winner of the angelpack LX is...
(imagine me rolling the bingo numbers around)
gretchen from lifenut!
and i am emailing her to let her know this happy news now, thank you all for entering!