6.06.2011

8 or 18 or something like that

tonight luke started working on a work thing and after 45 minutes of silent typing said something along the lines of, "wow, i sure got a lot done on this considering that i am mostly BSing it" and i said, "yes of course you did, isn't BSing it how most things start?"

i turned 28 on friday.  i can't believe that i am 28 but i also can't believe i have three babies.  18 seems so long ago, now, like as long ago as 8.  is that what happens when you get older?  the past all feels cemented in oldness, but not really in varying degrees?  i think now that i am 28 people will at least validate back to me that i am indeed a grown-up.  i think.

i had a wonderful and beautiful day.  i had sushi and grapefruit margaritas and got two of the sweetest gifts on earth from my little tiny 11 and 12 year old brothers and new running shoes that feel like running shoes are supposed to feel and i spent two and a half hours at the goodwill bins with my oldest best friend in the world, marlene.  she asked me to take her and then there we were, totally engrossed and pointing at things to each other from across many rows with shrugged shoulders.  "this?  do you see this?  i don't know what it is but it's cute, right?"

i bought someone's entire calico critter collection for under $5. calico critters are clark and alice's very favorite thing and i just couldn't believe it when they started turning up in front of me there. when i found the first one, a squirrel, i kinda flipped out about it. "a calico critter!  i've never seen one here before! i was totally gonna buy the squirrel family next!"  i started combing over every little thing in the area until i had uncovered more and more and more. the whole squirrel family!  the tiny toy train! all the toys for the toy shop!  THE WHOLE TOY SHOP! and i kept going.  the other woman going through that bin kept sideways-looking at me and was probably both confused about what i was after and intrigued by my ferocity.  i went over every inch, back and forth, red faced and serious, until i had found it all-- the toy shop, the baby playhouse, the baby play park, the wedding chapel, 18 critters and tons of accessories. phew.  I KNOW.

-

it was surreal, actually. i have a recurring dream about doing this very thing.  it's a dream i've always had, at least since i was teenager (or, ha, maybe since i was eight).  i am somewhere in my dream with a bunch of junk and i find things i like and start finding more and more, worried about dropping it all because my hands are so full but still finding more. i live out this dream a lot, but something about the day and the surprisingly excessive amount of stuff that turned up hiding in that bin were spot on to the tone of the dream.  and isn't it funny that what i wanted on my 28th birthday-- what was like my dream come true-- was finding stuff that was not for me but rather for my kids?  funny but fine.  i really didn't mind at all.  i was so excited to find it for them.  i AM a grown-up now.  i think.

anyway, my goal for this year is to keep BSing stuff because i truly believe that that is how even very good things start.  i want to start more things and progress on more things; i want to learn how to use my new camera and learn how to write more complete thoughts.  i want to care less about "how it will come off" or what will be revealed about me (imperfection) and just DO THE STUFF in my head. 

hello 28.  we are going to get things done.

-

20 comments:

  1. I like Calico Critters too! What an amazing find, that's so much stuff! It's funny I have that same dream sometimes! Thrift stores are my favorite places, and when I make an amazing find, it kinda feels like a small treasure :) I so love that this happened on your birthday!

    ReplyDelete
  2. "hello 28. we are going to get things done." -Yes, yes we are.

    I think 28 makes us grown-ups, but quite young grown-ups. Still young enough to be young because we're in our twenties, but 28 is within gazing distance of 30, so it is decidedly grown-up. But still infused with youth. A good age. Have a wonderful year, friend. I look forward to seeing the thoughts and pictures and schemes and creations flowing from you this year.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Happy Birthday! Well, now I feel just a wee bit old being in my thirties and all. But really, I think the kids did it for me. As soon as #2 arrived I felt old. Or is it tired? Or both? Well, again, happy birthday. And congrats on the great thrift finds. I miss dearly my old thrifting grounds. Glad to see some kindred junk-bin souls on the net. :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. Being 28 is pretty awesome, so welcome to the club, fellow 83'er! I wish I could find the toys of my youth and impart that love on my kids. Because then I would be able to sing, "Kid sister! Kid sister! Kid sister and meee!"

    I'm glad you had a great birthday. Grapefruit margaritas are considered a health food to some people and I am one of those people.

    ReplyDelete
  5. Happy Birthday! 28 is great!

    Love how you wove this post.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Happy belated birthday Erin! Sorry...I've been under a rock ( with an infant constantly attached to my boob haha). Hope it was wonderful and continues to be so. :)

    ReplyDelete
  7. I can't believe you found those Calico Critters! That's amazing. Ellie would be over the moon. She loves those things, too. It sounds like the perfect birthday for you. I'm so happy you had it. I am still finding it hard to consistently feel like a grown up. I'm staring down 35 this year, and I often feel more like a kid playing dress up than a real adult. I wonder if that feeling ever goes away.

    ReplyDelete
  8. I am wondering if I should continue to be jealous (and happy for you!) about your goodwill finds or should I be concerned? LoL. You are a delight, Erin!! I had sushi this weekend, too. That was the best thing about my weekend!

    Steph

    ReplyDelete
  9. I'm remembering that the first post of yours I read was on your 26th birthday. You received some very cute earrings than as I recall... In my other life, I AM a Calico Critter.
    Happy Birthday. xo

    ReplyDelete
  10. 28 is a good one, I promise.

    And I treated myself to some sushi this weekend, as well. :)

    glad you had such a happy day, my dear.

    ReplyDelete
  11. I cannot express how incredibly envious I am of your $5 Calico Critters find. That is a blessing from GOD, I tell you!!!

    ReplyDelete
  12. Happy Birthday! In honor of that, I will tell you that the more I read you, the more I love what I'm reading, and the more often I'm comign back here, even though you aren't posting a lot- which OF COURSE you aren't, with three kids under five. I think you are fabulous, and please continue being so boldly honest and speaking your true heart and thoughts, because it makes ME feel better :) ha!

    Happy Birthday :)

    ReplyDelete
  13. I am so jealous of you right now. I love Calico Critters. They remind me of a cartoon I watched as a kid called "Maple Town." Tell me you remember it because I turned 29 last month. Too bad my 5yo daughter could care less about Calico Critters. I have tried to lure her to them and sell her on how cool they are but she is more into Barbie... Sad for me, I know. Maybe my youngest will like them in a few years.

    ReplyDelete
  14. Oh, what a find! I'm so envious of your bins. And, yes, to BS!

    ReplyDelete
  15. love this post so so much. your writing really speaks to me.

    celebrating you, lovely mama.

    ReplyDelete
  16. I LOVE finding a treasure like that! Sounds like 28 has gotten off to a fabulous start for you! :)

    ReplyDelete
  17. ah, a birthday at goodwill. that's totally my kind of day.
    and just so you know...38 feels a whole lot like 28.
    at least in my experience. :-)
    happy birthday, lovely.

    ReplyDelete
  18. I love that everyone is jealous of your Calico Critters!! It was kindof surreal. I am so happy that I got to spend your 28th birthday with you. It was a treasure trove. PS I have been thinking a lot about the Goodwill Outlet and what I'm missing out on. xoxo

    ReplyDelete
  19. I had forgotten all about Calico Critters! Thanks for that walk down memory lane.

    Also - Happy Birthday!

    stephanie@metropolitanmama.net

    ReplyDelete
  20. this makes me smile and laugh so much- because i am so familiar with that intense happiness of uncovering a major score-- the red faced seriousness -- HAHA i am dying.

    A FAVORITE POST! love it. they were meant to be yours. or, um, i mean, clark's and alice's. ;)

    ReplyDelete