8.15.2011

hypothesis

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So I guess this weekend is birthday weekend. My girl is turning three and my baby is turning one.  This is what they tell me.  This is what the calendar tells me and we all know the calendar is in charge.  The calendar also says that my drivers license, the one I just renewed, like, last month?  The calendar says it expires in less than a year.  The calendar always wins. And it doesn't just win, it cheats.  If I were a scientist I would prove it to you.  You are a little kid with your whole life in front of you for what feels like an entire lifetime and then for one glimmering moment you are doing things and making choices and then you pause and look up and you are half-way to one hundred.  But you remember what you wore on your first day of kindergarten like it's no big thing. You are that same little girl in the Minnie Mouse raincoat, just wearier, and you got from there to here in the same time it took to go through grade school.  Of course I am speculating.  I am not fifty, I am twenty eight.  But I'll be fifty in a few years.  I don't know the exact mathematical equation, but I think it's just ten years or maybe two and a half years away.  Maybe I'll be fifty this Winter. I don't know.  But I know that come this weekend, Alice will be three and the little baby who was born in my bedroom, a few feet away from where I sit typing this, will be a whole year old.

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I know it and I even believe it.

19 comments:

  1. the same little girl in the minnie mouse raincoat, only wearier.

    you got that just right.

    happy birthdays to hal and alice, and to you, mama.

    i love this little post and all of it's truthiness.

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  2. you are just the cutest person in the whole wide world.

    happy birthday to hal & alice!!

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  3. I feel this way so often. Like, how can something I remember so clearly be, calendar-wise, so long ago? How can the pictures from my childhood suddenly look old? How can college be ten years ago? Time is such a weird thing and it makes me think all over again of how it's fluid and non-linear even though we live it in a linear way. And now I'm thinking about the illustrations in "A Wrinkle in Time" that explained the tesseract and I tell you, I never understood that dang tesseract.

    LOVE the birthday cake illustration for Hal and Alice. I am seriously fond of your kids, in an-over-the-Internet fashion. Which means I think they are super cute and funny and I would totally take them out for ice cream any day of the week.

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  4. Have a happy birthday weekend with the little sweethearts! I anticipate lots of new cute play happening post-birthday gifts. fun fun.

    Our 10 year high school reunion was last weekend (?). We didn't go. A decade ago we knew that we wouldn't go. :) Have a fun celebration of the amazing lives you've brought into the world.

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  5. What a sweet post, hope you do have a lovely birthday weekend!

    I keep waiting for the moment when I feel like an adult, from the outside I am doing things other adults are doing, like having babies, being engaged and paying bills, but I certainly dot feel like one... I wonder if I ever will feel like one or it will forever feel like a game of dress up and pretend?!

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  6. You totally nailed it! The calender is working against us.

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  7. So, so, so true. Hurry up... slow down. The calendar figures out which one we want and then does the opposite. Have a wonderful weekend with your "babies". Sop up every moment like gravy.

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  8. Happy Birthday to your babies!

    I will be 47 next month. Forty-effing-seven. And I have no idea how that happened. When will that grown up feeling kick in? Does it ever? I kinda hope it doesn't.

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  9. Happy birthday to sweet sweet kids! xoxox

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  10. sooooooo beautiful. see, you say the things that i'm not good at saying out loud. things that are in my brain but get lost on the way to my fingers. i'm loving all over this post tonight.

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  11. Time is most definitely a thief. I just love the way you write.

    happy birthday to your babies. :)

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  12. (shared this on fb, i liked it so much.) xo

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  13. "You are that same little girl in the Minnie Mouse raincoat, just wearier" -- like this a whole, whole lot. And I so very much like you.

    Happy, happy all around!

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  14. Happy Birthdays to your 2 sweeties. "Celebrate good times, come on," a wise man named Kool once said.

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  15. I just nodded my way through this. Exactly. Yes. How did it happen. I do believe it and yet, I feel cheated. Beautifully expressed.

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  16. P.S. Did you mean it about BlogHer in NY? I would love to meet you.

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  17. so many happy birthdays. i feel like my new little one will be in great company.
    xoxo

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  18. So, so, so true!

    Happy Birthday to Hal & Alice!

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