9.29.2011

cheers

My last posts lost me two followers.  I don't know why I noticed.  I wish I didn't notice the number, but it's right there when I log in.  Maybe I should disable that.  I have also gotten quite a few worried comments and emails.  You all know I am just fine, right?  Just fine.  Happy.  Reflective and tired and happy. It's the tone around this dusty place.  In person I am peppy.  Chipper.  Bubbly, even.

The other day I drove past what appeared, from my peripheral vision, to be a makeshift shrine for a car accident victim.  Teddy bears and flowers.  But when I looked straight at it, it was a very overly-decorated sign for an estate sale.  I love estate sales, but they had already unintentionally depressed me.  Tone is everything.  I hope I am not unintentionally depressing you.  Am I unintentionally depressing you?

I now present with you with peppy, chipper, and bubbly.

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Hearts and stars and sandwiches and strawberries!  Gingham and ginger ale! Bunnies and babies!  Pink and gold!  Sunshine and radio!

I'mma pep things up.

27 comments:

  1. Here's the thing. You are real and that is why I love you.
    Life isn't always puppies and unicorns and rainbows.
    Sometimes it is puppies pooping on the floor, getting stuck with a unicorn horn in the rear and rain.

    I know what you mean about losing followers though. It has been happening to me too. Wish I didn't care, but I do.

    No matter. I like you and that is all that matters, right? RIGHT??? ;)

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  2. You are sweet and real and perfectly you. Sorry those two folks will be missing out.

    Keep writing for you. Don't start writing for other people or you're screwed.

    xoxo

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  3. i'm with Kim. and no, you're not depressing me!

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  4. You know, life isn't always sunshine and roses and that's okay. :) Being reflective is a good thing as long as it's not getting in the way of you being happy in your life.

    I think often blogs portray a very unrealistic version of life because it's only a small portion of ones life. I might post pictures of the cake I baked during the weekend but I probably won't show a picture of the dirty bathroom. It might lead someone to believe my life was only baking delicious cakes.... but that's only a small part of my life.

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  5. First thing, yes, disable that follower thing. I have no idea if I lose followers or not, and I prefer it that way. It's liberating.

    My blog is a piece of depression right now, that is unless I'm talking about food, which is just a cover up for how I'm really feeling.

    Ok, it's a sunny day out. Gonna shut of this computer box and see if it helps. Yeah fall!

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  6. i had that follower thing when my blog was on blogger. i think there were 5 total, so...yeah, who cares?

    and no one is happy all the time...so what? that doesn't mean you aren't super cool.

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  7. That was the best conclusion (what is this? High school English. Jeez!) of a blog post! Strawberries!

    I understand people being concerned, but if this is where you need to get the sads out, then do it! The changing weather is making me forget about rainbows and strawberries. Instead I see cold weather and gloom.

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  8. Yeah, I'm in the camp of advisors saying to disable whatever setting you have, pronto.

    You are real, and some people can't handle that.

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  9. You have never depressed me or worried me! You are honest and open and real and beautiful and that's what I love so very, very much about you.

    I love how thoughtful Hal is when he eats.

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  10. people who only write about roses and rainbows and bunnies and chocolate pudding are kind of scary to me. like ... are they always that happy? really?? b/c damn. i feel inadequate.

    i agree with lisa ... two people are going to be seriously missing out.

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  11. I recently lost two "followers" and let it affect me too personally. I, too, have thought about disabling the whole follower/reader statistic thing because in the beginning and in the end, isn't the blog for me, and yours for you? Also I can count on one hand the blogs I faithfully read every post and yours is one of them, for what it's worth. I love them all.

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  12. Well, I like it here!! I actually wish you posted more...that's how much I like it here ;) I "found" your blog quite a while ago and then got busy with life, so I'm glad I found my way back!!
    Last week I posted a picture of a cow with my post and lost 2 "followers" (I really don't like calling it that!). I told my husband I must have offended people with my cow pic....
    Blogging is a funny thing. I'm just trying to blog for me and let things fall where they may.

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  13. P.S. Your little ones are adorable!!

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  14. If I could doubly follow you so you gain back two followers I would. Because I like reading your thoughts because they are genuinely your thoughts. And you make them poetry so you have that going for you too.

    You don't depress me. You make me want to dig through bins among other things.

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  15. This post was extra peppy for me because it reminded me of a sweet old story from my past. I was almost 16 and got noticed by a boy for the very fist time and he was sweet and kind and ended up being my high school sweetheart. And in the very beginning before I knew he had noticed me it was English class and the teacher said, "Does anyone know what gingham is?" and he said, "Jessi was wearing a gingham skirt last Wednesday."

    And that is a sweet innocent sunshiney memory for me and you are sweet and sunshine too. But only when its real, and that is the only way anyone should ever be it.

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  16. Now you're making me laugh. You have to forgive those of us who send concerned emails. It's only because we think you're truly awesome that we care, right? Life is sometimes not bunnies and babies and that's okay. I personally like to hear about all of it, and the only way you would lose me is if you...well, I don't know. Started snorting coke off your baby's belly or something. And then I'd just find my way to your house with one of the counselors from Intervention, so there's NO LOSING ME. :)

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  17. Don't worry about the followers. It's their loss for sure. :)

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  18. And puppy dogs and rainbows, too? :-) {You don't depress me. I like real. Also, this is your space to let out whatever needs out ... just wanted to say that in case it needed to be heard.} xo

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  19. Bunch of BS. Please don't cheery it up for us. I love your blog because it is what it is...not what it's not. The way you express your thoughts here is so unique that I feel like i can always find a connection and warm thought without all the cheerio business. OK, and I make no sense right now. So, anyhow. Hugs! From someone who has three littles and often feels fun over instead of running things smoothly. :)

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  20. i love it all. i love the waves of joy and sorrow and thoughtfulness and boredom and happiness and cuteness and gushiness and quietness and the sunny days and the snowy winters (and the moods that don't always match the weather). I love your mind and I love your aesthetic and I love your pictures and your words.

    As for followers, I think you have gained them through your willingness to share which is beautiful and brave and exposing.

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  21. Back to add something. When I was doing our gift card drive for the homeless, I lost followers at Twitter. Noticeable amounts.

    If you pour out your heart for any reason and people decide they can't handle it, you are better off without them. Do you want the fair-weather-types in your corner? I don't. That doesn't mean that I didn't feel a bit stung.

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  22. I know you in person and yes you are so ENERGETIC. I think it's hard to portray in writing and photos sometimes, and also, people just need to think outside the blog box with you (I ask the same for me!) :)

    Steph

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  23. Here's my .02:

    sometimes people are following plus subscribing in a reader plus following on networked blogs plus getting your posts in emails, and sometimes they just pare down or clean up their feeds to streamline things. maybe they're not unfollowing at all, or maybe they followed long ago but haven't been reading in months or years and just now went through their account.

    or maybe not. but I say this just to encourage you to keep being you without feeling the need to prove anything or switch anything up for what you perceive some stranger out there may or may not be thinking.

    because a lot of us think you are just wonderful as-is.

    xoxo

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  24. I love you. And that picture of Alice. Sorry boys - but she takes the cute. :)

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  25. and who knows if they even read that post? i'll be the first to admit that sometimes i go through and delete blogs off my reader because i honestly subscribe to far too many to keep up. so i go through and thin the herd now and then. i'm sure more people do this than just me.
    and if they did delete you because you decided to not poop rainbows? not the kind of people you form real connections with, right?
    although i don't have very many followers. so i might not be the best person to give advice here.
    :-)
    xoxo

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  26. well, hello - a new friend and follower here! keep up the honest authentic presentation.

    You know, people start/stop following for multitudes of reasons....don't let it get you down - bloom where you are planted and enjoy whatever community you've got. :)

    Cheers!
    ~H

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